Sunday, 23 November 2008
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No Big News After All...
So...as most of you probably already know, I'm not moving anywhere. I'm very sad about this fact, because I love adventure and feeling like I'm doing something brave for God and seriously, it would be so much cooler to blog from Papua New Guinea than from Mississippi. I thought I had been cleared health-wise, but in the end, they said they needed someone stronger.
I'm wondering if perhaps God will let me move to another country some day. Maybe He'll give me some other calling that feels like a Great Lifework...but for now I am here, in Mississippi, and trying to figure out if I'm really supposed to just give up on the dream of "going" and try to start dreaming of being a "stayer." Every time I think I have it resolved in my heart that I can be just as happy wherever God decides to put me, He leaves me right where I am and I realize I wasn't quite as willing to be anywhere as I thought. I really meant anywhere but here, Lord.
How do I find the balance between being perfectly content in the Lord and not shutting down hope and dreams which may have been given to me by God?
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Well, as my girlfriend Joyce Meyers says ;)... you 'learn to be content with where you are on the way to where you are going.' Cause as i have learned for many years ... if you cant find joy where you are, then there is quite a possibility that you wont find it anywhere. I have learnt for myself that its when I look ahead without the Lord opening my eyes to it, then I become frustrated with where I am. It doesnt mean that you wont have an exciting future, just that maybe it will be where you are not expecting it in a way you could never imagine. I mean, look at Thailand and me. It was the VERY last place a number of years ago that i would have even considered going .. now i am so pumped its rediculous!
In all of this i guess what i am saying 'Nita is this ... expect to be amazed when it does happen.
Love you ... (((hugs)))
Wish I knew...
But you are one of the few people I know who could make a blog just as interesting from Mississippi as Papua New Guinea, just so you know.
wow, what a million dollar question. The answer, I think, has something to do with 'holy dissatisfaction.' You can always kill your heart, too, and then it wouldn't hurt so much. But you don't want that option.
Isn't it awful to be contained in a body. Some day we won't be. Bless you in the interminable wait.
Wow girl,, I'd say I'm sorry and I am sorry that you can't go cuz you really wanted to but I have it on pretty good authority that God has better things in mind for you... I'll be praying fer ya. I know exactly what you mean. Luv ya girl!
And Anita spent 40 days & 40 nights in the belly of the whale, and when she was great with childish frustration, God caused a deep sleep to come upon her. After she slept for one furlough, she went with him twain and heard a voice speaking to her in a whisper, but Anita did not understand the words that were whispered because she had a stiff neck and rebellious headache. So she set forth across the desert and after 3 days & 3 nights alone, trudging across the desert and complaining feverishly to the Lord, she fell on her face and said, "Lord slay me." But the Lord replied, "Girl, get up off your face, for the place you are now is in Mississippi!"
Then Anita found courage and kept all these things and pondered them in her heart as she drove her little red Toyota car faithfully back and forth to her work.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Anita I feel for you...that's got to be a hard spot to be in. I have always appreciated your courage and willingness to be used of God in whatever capacity He may call you...it's so tough to understand His plan when it feels as if a dream is dying or laying stagnat. I pray that you may find courage to hang onto HIM more than you hang onto the DREAM. That's a tough thing to do...believe me, I am there myself!
@kokomorose - Amen